The end of the year seems an odd time to begin something. It doesn't feel odd, per se, so perhaps what I really mean is that the more popular choice seems to be to wait until the holidays are over and the calendar announces a new and fresh year before taking on a new endeavour. I felt ready to publish this blog now, though, so here it is: December 28th, 2016, the inaugural blog post.
I've been saving drafts and thinking about taking this blog live for a whole year now (surprise!), and even though I don't plan to publish a single one of them and I still don't know how to commit to any kind of regular posting schedule or content, I want to try again.
Blogging today means something very different from what it meant when I started my first blog in high school. I know this, and therefore I'm weary of calling this space a blog when there's so much pressure to categorize and monetize and schedule content on the internet these days. I think it's amazing that it's possible to make a living from your opinion about stuff, but I know that's not for me. I don't have much of an idea of what this space will be, but I'm not even worried about it.
So, why am I starting this blog, and why now?
2016 was full of a lot of self-evaluation- more than my usual amount. One of my constant sources of tension has been learning to love my life without the measurement of social media to compare and contrast my level of contentment. I've really observed how social media permeates nearly every area of our lives and I want to fight that. I feel like the coming year will be a continuation of learning how to be totally engaged in my own life with less external validation, less excess, more time for creativity and freedom.
One might argue that a blog is just another form of social media. This may be true, but my hope is that this will be a safe and authentic space to share, one that gives me a chance to finish a thought instead of posting a photo or sentiment in the hopes that it captures an experience accurately. So as I continue to re-evaluate my social media use, I hope to cultivate this blog to be a more thoughtful, meaningful, creative and self-validating space than my other online platforms.
Maybe I'll stick with it, maybe I won't. I'm not even going to promise that I will. If even for a time this blog allows me to align my values with exploring and writing and sharing and connecting, then that's all the purpose it needs to have.
So bless you for being here. I'm excited for what our time together will hold, whatever that may be.